Milk Attachment

As many of you know for many reasons I was unable to breastfeed Jackson so when Duke came I really wanted to make it work. It took a lot of work but I was able to push through the jaundice and the lack of weight gain and get him to breastfeed. I was so afraid of losing my milk I pumped everyday. Soon I had a freezer full of milk. I thought this was great because I could leave Josh with the kids and he would have plenty of food for Duke. Well, best laid plans... Duke has never really drank from a bottle so...I have a freezer full of milk. It was such a struggle to get him to breastfeed that I am so attached to the milk I can't do anything with it. A few weeks ago I tried to throw it away, because it is 5 months expired, but I just couldn't do it. So it sits in the freezer as my badge of honor, a symbol of all I went through, as literally a part of me. Who knows when I will be able to bring myself to throw it away...maybe when it starts to stink?